When Suicidal Thoughts Are A Normal Part Of Your Life

I would love to know what it’s like to not have suicidal thoughts for any extended period of time, but I don’t. My mind doesn’t handle things well and a bad day quickly spirals. It’s not necessarily that I all out want to die most days, it’s just that my mind decides that that’s the […]

And this is why I don’t talk about being raped

The amazing quote, and the picture, come from here. “You could have just walked away?” “What, were you tied up or something?” “Why didn’t you just push her away from you?” “That can’t happen.” “Anybody with what you have always wants it.” “You’re making it up.” And, as of recently, the newest one, which came […]

I’ll be back in a few days

Hey sunshines. Things have gotten to a really bad point with me, I’m very much red, and while I’m still lucid enough to do so, I’m going back to the crisis unit.Over the last two weeks I’ve been battling extremely bad depressive thoughts and suicidal thoughts, mainly due to dysphoria, and the added piece of […]

I have some serious attachment issues

I had a new friend tell me yesterday that I needed to back off from the amount that I contacted her, it was making her uncomfortable. It didn’t upset me that she said that, in fact I can totally understand, I looked back through calls, text messages and Facebook messages and realized that I’m contacting her like 3, […]

Paranoia: making it through mountains

Feature image by Kaelte Every little thing is huge If I confront someone (even if I know them well), obviously things will get physical. If I drive somewhere, of course I’ll die in the car. If someone I love leaves my site, well duh, they’re going to die. Since I play the piano, it’s a […]