I had a hell of an argument with R today, which mostly revolved around me having, admittedly, not the best attitude about a request dealing with the kiddos. Before I get to that though: I’ve found the word I’ve been looking for. I’ve called them “my problems.” I’ve called them “my issues.” I’ve called them… Continue reading My Limitations Don’t Care if You (or I) Think They’re Ridiculous
Hey sunshines. Things have gotten to a really bad point with me, I’m very much red, and while I’m still lucid enough to do so, I’m going back to the crisis unit.Over the last two weeks I’ve been battling extremely bad depressive thoughts and suicidal thoughts, mainly due to dysphoria, and the added piece of… Continue reading I’ll be back in a few days
I’ve been trying to figure out for a long time a very simple, succinct way to tell my confidants how I’m feeling, especially when things are bad. There’s one big, huge, problematic issue… I can’t tell anyone when I’m feeling suicidal. And that happens to cause just a few issues like, I don’t know, not… Continue reading A color code for emotions? What?!
*image found here. ****Occasionally I will repost this as I get more information, or more readers in different countries**** Whoever you are, whether I’ve talked to you or not, you are beautiful. You are loved. There are people that care about you, even if you don’t realize it, even if you can’t see it right now.… Continue reading The Love Yourself List: Links To Help If You’re Feeling Suicidal
I’m generally quite a logical person, and I take a lot of pride in that. I keep calm and am able to help others in bad situations. I methodically study everything. I’m very good about rational and reasoned thinking, but sometimes… my mind breaks. It stops working right. It’s the harsh reality of my mental… Continue reading When my mind breaks, it’s like…
*note: this was written a couple weeks ago It’s hard sometimes. I get tired of my bipolar, I’m tired of my anxiety. I get tired of fighting so hard to keep my life turned right side up and to not fuck it up again. There are days when I feel well, where I just want… Continue reading I get so tired… and so scared.
Things have been…. rough lately. Not necessarily depressed or can’t get out of the pit rough, but there have a been a lot of things going on. We lost our van, and we are having to hinge on the help and donations of others, which I’m grateful for, but is stressful and uncomfortable to me… Continue reading Some time to think. I’m kind of worried