Autism testing day number one. Can’t get the darkness out of my head

I’m sitting up in bed, next to my girlfriend. She is fast asleep. She works nights. I didn’t sleep well last night, I should really be asleep with her… I can’t sleep though. I’m having nightmares again. I don’t remember them.  Be all accounts, I should be excited. Today is my first day of testing […]

Ivy, where’d you go?

Hi sunshines! I love you and I miss you. I’ve been having a really hard time lately in my personal life, and I’ve kind of caved into this terrible spiral resulting in a pretty dramatic isolation. I don’t have a job currently, and I think at some point my brain broke, and now, it “can’t […]

Euphoria – By Suzanne Marie Calvin-Yim© 

A single bubble escaped my right nostril, swimming in haste to the water’s surface, as if gasping. I closed my eyes. She was right, that synchronized swimmer I’d overheard in the locker room. “Sometimes we lay on the bottom of the pool. It’s actually relaxing.” I could’ve drifted off to sleep. My heartbeat, remarkably slow, […]