I wish I wasn’t sick.
I wish my brain wasn’t sick.
I wish I could live with my babies.
I wish I didn’t screw up the most beautiful thing in my life.
I wish I wasn’t missing my little loves grow… They’ve all learned so much in the past month.
How I miss knowing what they’re doing day to day.
Seeing them grow is lovely, but it hurts so much to know I’m missing it
Because I’m so fucking sick
And I can never get rid of it
I’ll never be not sick
I miss my babies so much