life

I miss him, but I’m okay

I wish we could “date”. You know, not live together, and not necessarily even label it any romantic thing, but you know, go out sometimes. Kiss… I miss his kisses. Cuddle. Spend the night sometimes. Sex. Maybe. It would be nice, but none of this is necessary.

It’s hard to get used to. We lived together and slept in the same bed before we even started dating was back in the ancient times of 2011. I know I need to work on myself. I know I need to work on my relationship abilities, but… sometimes I just wonder why we can’t be together romantically in some form.

I’m okay being secondary.

I’m okay “just” casually dating him.

I wish it wasn’t completely cut off.

I’m still in love with my best friend, probably always will be.

I don’t want to label it, I just wish we could be more romantic. Our intimacy is beautiful, but I do miss the romance.

Nonetheless, at the end of the day, I just want my best friend deeply involved in my life, romantic or not.

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