The Love Yourself List: Links To Help If You’re Feeling Suicidal

*image found here. ****Occasionally I will repost this as I get more information, or more readers in different countries**** Whoever you are, whether I’ve talked to you or not, you are beautiful. You are loved. There are people that care about you, even if you don’t realize it, even if you can’t see it right now. […]

Autism testing day number one. Can’t get the darkness out of my head

I’m sitting up in bed, next to my girlfriend. She is fast asleep. She works nights. I didn’t sleep well last night, I should really be asleep with her… I can’t sleep though. I’m having nightmares again. I don’t remember them.  Be all accounts, I should be excited. Today is my first day of testing […]

Ivy, where’d you go?

Hi sunshines! I love you and I miss you. I’ve been having a really hard time lately in my personal life, and I’ve kind of caved into this terrible spiral resulting in a pretty dramatic isolation. I don’t have a job currently, and I think at some point my brain broke, and now, it “can’t […]

Euphoria – By Suzanne Marie Calvin-Yim© 

A single bubble escaped my right nostril, swimming in haste to the water’s surface, as if gasping. I closed my eyes. She was right, that synchronized swimmer I’d overheard in the locker room. “Sometimes we lay on the bottom of the pool. It’s actually relaxing.” I could’ve drifted off to sleep. My heartbeat, remarkably slow, […]